Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one, to built me up and tear me down.


Trg today was ridiculous.

My stepped on my leg during some redundant drill today and twisted her ankle and its my fault. Ok I am being sarcastic, but some people felt it was my fault.

It's my fault, I shouldn't have went for trg, I should have poked my nose into the team's trg, I shouldn't be there at all. Why go for trg when I'm not in the team? I've been asking myself.

For my own sake, 'cause I want to go far, is that wrong?

I'm sly, if that's how all of you say it. But so? Different players have different styles of play, I just happen to be more of a thinking player than a physical one. And that has cost me a place in the team, I don't have the delivery. Do you think I enjoy being out of the team? No obviously but what can I do? That's how I play Netball, and I have to learn to gain the trust of my coach. I know I need to have the delivery and consistency and I will work towards it.

Ok with that aside, I don't know if I should go for trgs anymore.

Jia You Limei, I know you can do it! I love you, my sly partner!

&my, if you happen t read this, i'm not angry with you

Baby I would tell you everytime you leave, I'm inconsolable.




I'm moving on,
&I'm never gna give up on this.





Cheer up cap! I'll be around...

if youre over me, i'm alr over you
if its all been done, what is left to do
how can you hang up if the line is dead
if you wna walk i'm a step ahead
if youre moving on, i'm alr gone



People around me have been telling me to move on from where I fell, but it's easier said than done. I know in life, there are bound to be setbacks and its from there that we learn. She told me that if I overcome this, I'd become a stronger person altogether.

Giving up Netball is like giving up on my life. I know I can never give this up. It is my passion, and it will always be. It's just a matter of time before I pick myself up and go for it again. I know I can do it, I know I'll make an achievement in Netball. Though I'm disappointed in you, but I still trust you 'cause you told me you believe I will go far in this.

It's not over, I still have a long way baby.
I'm determined.

Sigh, but it's gna be a tough journey. Getting over this first setback is already terrible, but I will persevere.

& to you, my 4years friend; Give me more time, we'll be fine.

I am thankful that I have y'all by my side.

You tell me that you need me, then you go and cut me down.

You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around t say, that it's too late to apologise, it's too late.



I feel lousy...









When you're gone

I'll tell you everytime you leave, I'm inconsolable.


Lix told me that she has t be fair t the team. I accepted it, but is it fair that she still gets the chance in the team despite everything she has done?

I'm very disappointed. &it's gna take a long time for me t get over this. Perhaps I won't get over it all my life.

You can never understand how I exactly feel now, it's horrible.
I'm stuck, &I wish I was still in the team, playing happy Netball with all of you.

It feels terrible, thinking of the trgs we've had together. We overcame those together and it hurts t face the fact that, it will never be the same anymore.

I'm so down.











It's so hard t let go.

I'm tired...

• I'M DISAPPOINTED
• IT'S OVER
• I HATE NETBALL
• & I NO LONGER WANT TO BE A NETBALLER

You've got it right, I'm giving this up. So I guess this is goodbye, good luck.

Emaths test yesterday was manageable &I hope t pass that paper.


Sch's been alright, except for the fact that we've crt after sch on certain days. It's gna be tough as the days go by, but I'll keep going. My main concern now is to manage my time wisely. &I hope I'll get enough sleep so I won't doze off in class.

The next thing I'm very concerned about is the selections tomorrow. I'm feeling very uneasy and I'm all stressed out. Lix told me not to think about selections &just play my game. I've been trying but I just cannot stop having thoughts about it. It's so hard to imagine myself not in the team. Sigh, I just want to make the team.

It's gna be a long day for us tomorrow. Trials in the morning, sch in the afternoon &trg in the late afternoon.

I guess I'll do some revision and go to bed. I'm tired.



I want smth positive tomorrow, please.

First week of 2008, down.

Season's starting in about 2 weeks time &I'm starting t feel the pressure again. With the overloading tests, homework &revision t complete, I feel tired though its just the beginning. But I'll work hard, its my last year afterall. I really want to do well in both academic &Netball.

I've 3 tuitions today! ):
But believe me when I say I'm perfectly okay with it. I said I'll work hard, &I must be determined! Monday will be the start of yet another week. I've tests, revisions, tuitions, homework &trainings. I hope I'll be able to manage my time well.

Till then, goodbye!
:D

And I still want to make the team very much.